June in DC!\u00a0 When the lovely spring weather slowly slides into swampland horror. The sun glares down and it\u2019s a humid mid-80\u2019s before 8am.\u00a0 I try to walk 10 miles a day, despite my soul-murdering sedentary day job, so I push on through Code Orange mornings, breathing in toxic fumes and insuring that I\u2019ll die, choking to death, at the age of 63. All for the illusion of fitness.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s about this time of year when I think about my long-abandoned goal to become a landscaper.\u00a0 That was back in 99, and I had just had what we\u2019ll go ahead and call a nervous breakdown. I wanted to quit the office life forever, never dress up again, and get dirty every day. Drive around in a truck and mow lawns, plant trees, tend to gardens, wear shorts, and get sexually molested by lonely housewives and\/or Slovenian ex-hooker au pairs.<\/p>\n
Yet, I write this now after nine years sitting in a windowless office, talking to morons, and being treated by my superiors like I\u2019m a troubled 13 year old.<\/p>\n
\nFor two years, there at the end of America\u2019s Last Decade, I worked for an Associated Press-affiliated company.\u00a0 My job was to edit the lifestyle, politics, sports, and entertainment newswires. I had two deadlines each day \u2013 10am and 3pm \u2013 and my job was to sit in an office and surf the raw feed for stories, as well as receive countless fucked up stories sent in by stringers and by some Skynet-style AI that was constantly surfing the wires and the net as well.<\/p>\n
I had to fill a quota for each of those two daily deadlines.\u00a0 Basically, I just weeded out stories that fit the topic of each of the wires and, if I was short, I wrote a few original pieces to meet the quota.\u00a0 I was often short.\u00a0 The shit that came in read like it was written on the back of cocktail napkins, or it came from foreign journalists with a poor grasp of English, or even unpaid nobodies who ranted crazily.\u00a0 That raw feed was amazing.\u00a0 But there wasn\u2019t much time to sit and giggle about the crazy shit.\u00a0 The deadlines loomed.\u00a0 I came into work everyday at around 7am, sometimes earlier, and got right to work.\u00a0 Read through a million stories, pick out the \u201cbest\u201d ones, edit\/rewrite as necessary, dump into a folder, then transmit at 10am.\u00a0 At 10:01, I\u2019d start all over again for the 3pm deadline.\u00a0 At 3:01 I left the office and avoided the written word for the rest of the day (which I usually spent at Flanagan\u2019s in Bethesda, back when they were in a dismal basement and all the wait staff were high on cocaine and kind of scary).<\/p>\n
Sounds interesting, though, doesn\u2019t it?\u00a0 Especially for the editors and writers out there.\u00a0 You get to see a weird backstage sort of area in newsmaking, you get to make up snappy stories, you get to edit out 100% of the humanity from countless wannabe writers\u2026 There was a downside, though \u2013 the news never stops.\u00a0 You get a newspaper on Saturday and Sunday.\u00a0 You get one on Christmas and New Year\u2019s.\u00a0 I had to go to work seven days a week, and on every holiday.\u00a0 Now, there was only one deadline on those days, and it was whenever I wanted it to be.\u00a0 So I\u2019d get up at 7am on Saturdays, Sundays, and holidays and drive in and spend an hour or two doing a sloppy job, then shoot everything out at 9am or so. Then fast home to enjoy the rest of the day.<\/p>\n
So no days off and no vacations for two years.\u00a0 I started to get a little cagey after a while.\u00a0 In 95, I spent a couple months in the UK, wandering like a vagabond, and the travel bug bit me something fierce.\u00a0 It had been on my mind to return, and the AP job provided me with the money to do so.\u00a0 But I had to fight just to take a sick day, let alone consecutive days off for pleasure.<\/p>\n
Things came to a head in 1999 when a writer friend of mine called with a long sob story.\u00a0 He was under contract to write a travel\/history sort of book about the American Southwest.\u00a0 His publisher gave him a $100,000 (!!) advance and, almost immediately, his life fell apart.\u00a0 His wife left him after a series of insane shenanigans that belonged on a bad soap opera, then his teenaged kid dropped out of school and got busted for drugs. The book suffered and, finally, his publisher was threatening to send a few Terminators down to kill him and take the advance back.<\/p>\n
Since I was the only person in his life who had no life of my own, he pleaded for help.\u00a0 Come out west and babysit for two weeks while he drove all over Colorado, Arizona, New Mexico, and Texas in search of Horace Greeley\u2019s dream.\u00a0 (Except it wasn\u2019t actually Greeley who told us to \u201cGo West\u201d was it?\u00a0 But, whatever\u2026)<\/p>\n
I agreed.\u00a0 Even something as horrible as babysitting a troubled teen sounded like a vacation to me at that point.\u00a0 But, of course, getting two weeks off was like taking on a Waffen-SS unit with an egg whisk. I finally claimed that it was a deeply personal family tragedy, at which point they said I could take one day.\u00a0 I finally won the two weeks, but it cost me just about everything.\u00a0 When I returned, it was clear that they wanted me out.\u00a0 Every day, there\u2019d be some silly problem and I\u2019d be dragged in to have the big boss yell at me.\u00a0 They moved me out of my office and put me on the wild and crazy news floor, surrounded by blaring TV\u2019s and screaming editors. They took away everything and poked and prodded until I finally just lost it and stormed out.<\/p>\n
Footloose and fancy free! I went back to my apartment and collapsed.\u00a0 Never again, I swore to myself.\u00a0 I was going to live like the Other Half.\u00a0 I applied for weird jobs like landscaping, and installing koi ponds, and working at tropical fish stores. I started doing freelance writing for a British-based business journal, which paid well but unreliably. I did some other freelance editing and writing gigs \u2013 hanging out at bars in Bethesda.\u00a0 But no jobs came through, and freelancing just doesn\u2019t pay the bills when an invoice may go wanting for two months.<\/p>\n
I was slowly pushed back to a regular job, and finally reached a level of desperation that made it necessary. This time, I decided to focus on a job that allowed me to have a life and pursue my interests \u2013 writing, publishing, travel, time off to sit at home and complain about my job.\u00a0 I looked into the groovy non-profit world, picking out weird folks.\u00a0 At first, I tried to merge the landscaping\/freelance idea with the real job \u2013 tending monuments, research work for things like the police memorial and so on.\u00a0\u00a0 I ended up with American Youth Hostels \u2013 following my first, best dream in life: Travel.\u00a0 It was a sick little customer service job, but I secretly enjoyed it.\u00a0 It involved zero brainpower and I spent all day talking to kids and non-traditional travelers.\u00a0 People who roughed it and did the hostel thing and, so, had something of a well-rounded view on life.\u00a0 Few and far between were the angry, evil customers.\u00a0 And every call fed that dream of travelling.<\/p>\n
The job gave me plenty of time off, as well.\u00a0 I explored New Orleans for a week in 2000, I toured Spain for three weeks in 2001, and I took off little bits of time here and there for road trips west, north, and south, and a quick jaunt to Canada.<\/p>\n
Then, in 2001, my boss left, and his replacement was a corrupt madman from the Congo who took me off the phones and forced me to write love letters to various women he had met on the street.\u00a0 Paranoid to the core, he came to believe that his employees were spying on him, and he\u2019d have me try and counterspy against them.<\/p>\n
It was time to leave.\u00a0 My old boss said there was an opening at his new place and, well, here I am.\u00a0 Nine years of not-so-enjoyable customer service work.\u00a0 I talk to enraged morons who have a very narrow view of the world, and are surprisingly socially dysfunctional.\u00a0 But, it was still another job that allowed for seemingly endless vacation time and gave me the emotional and mental freedom to pursue my life and dreams.<\/p>\n
Now I\u2019m moving into that old mindset I had in 99.\u00a0 Now I feel that my life and dreams can be the same as my job.\u00a0 Though being a weird gardener is no longer on the table, I\u2019ve found myself thinking about where I was back then. Somehow, I\u2019ve managed to turn my hobbies into real skills, and, as opposed to being a somewhat wayward dreamer in 99, I\u2019m now able to take those skills and turn them into cash\u2026which I can blow at a basement bar somewhere.\u00a0 Full circle!<\/p>\n
So why not?\u00a0 It\u2019s time to get up and walk away once again. Well\u2026once the credit card debt is paid off.\u00a0 And I can be sure to cover the rent that is twice what I was paying in 99.\u00a0 And\u2026 Oh god!\u00a0 There\u2019s no escape, is there?<\/p>\n
Word to the wise, my younger readers:\u00a0 Stay free.\u00a0 Because if you haven\u2019t felt the wanderlust yet, then you will eventually.\u00a0 And, if you never do, then your life isn\u2019t worth living.<\/p>\n
My time of change is fast approaching. All I need is to undo my financial woes and I\u2019ll be back to square one.\u00a0 Except, this time, things make a whole lot more sense. And I can make sure that invoices get paid because I\u2019ve learned how to make homemade explosives.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
June in DC!\u00a0 When the lovely spring weather slowly slides into swampland horror. The sun glares down and it\u2019s a humid mid-80\u2019s before 8am.\u00a0 I try to walk 10 miles a day, despite my soul-murdering sedentary day job, so I …<\/p>\n