{"id":624,"date":"2010-03-10T10:06:13","date_gmt":"2010-03-10T15:06:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.greatsociety.org\/?p=624"},"modified":"2018-10-30T17:38:44","modified_gmt":"2018-10-30T21:38:44","slug":"classical-nacho","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/?p=624","title":{"rendered":"Classical Nacho"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019ve been asked to return to \u201cClassic Nacho\u201d for the front page.\u00a0 Something that\u2019s a bit hard to do when I\u2019m also plugging away at the 12,000 words a month project<\/a>.\u00a0 But then I got to thinking: It\u2019s structure on the GS front page that\u2019s been the enemy in the past.<\/p>\n


\nMy whole life has been carefully structured, actually.\u00a0 Initially, it was designed to help me get through each minute of each day and survive agonizing nerve pain.\u00a0 With that pain now cured, the structure remains.\u00a0 Kind of like\u2026 Well, kind of like having a bloodthirsty former KGB officer running Russia.\u00a0 Talk about same as the old boss. But, as with everything human, it takes time to break down the psychological walls that enable such insane transgressions. We work our whole lives to change the world \u2013 even if it\u2019s a change that just takes place in our own personal worlds.<\/p>\n

Actually, it\u2019s kind of pathetic.\u00a0 I blame the Catholic Church. When I was a kid, I wanted to be a priest because I thought I\u2019d be free of the guilt and horror or our serf-like existence.\u00a0 I could own vast tracts of land, rape small children, bully the local lords, get paid with iron chests full of coins\u2026 That\u2019s what it\u2019s like being a priest, right?<\/p>\n

Great Society is not about structure.\u00a0 It never was.\u00a0 It\u2019s the Colonel Kurtz part of my mind.\u00a0 Malarial, hiding in the jungle, writing a never-ending book about how everyone should die, then reading passages of it out over the shortwave.<\/p>\n

If I relax, then \u201cclassic Nacho\u201d is possible, and in tandem with the 12,000 word project.\u00a0 If I relax, many things are possible.<\/p>\n

April 19th is the third anniversary of the surgery that ended my pain and brought me back to life.\u00a0 The memory of the pain, the fear of it, the death-like trance that froze my soul for 12 years, lingers.\u00a0 It\u2019s the aging KGB officer still ruling my body and mind like some mad despot.<\/p>\n

The first step to healing, I think, is to let go and do whatever the fuck I want.\u00a0 Something I haven\u2019t done in, oh\u202636 years?\u00a0 Yeah.\u00a0 About that.\u00a0 I need to bring my mind out of whirring, smoking overdrive and concentrate on the simple, beautiful things. Which may really be what the GS front page is about.\u00a0 The journey of my mental and physical health.\u00a0 The healing process.\u00a0 Under this assumed name, pain or no pain, I can do and say anything.<\/p>\n

Well, nearly.\u00a0 It would help if my fucking co-workers weren\u2019t reading the page.\u00a0 But, to be honest, they probably can\u2019t read this far anyway.\u00a0 I lost half my audience after 250 words.\u00a0 By the time I hit 500 words, I\u2019ll personally know the three readers who are still chugging through this.\u00a0 So \u201cClassic Nacho\u201d should just be 500 words about how I like oranges, and spring rainstorms, and perfect days in May. It should be about kittens and puppies and lovely trips to the UK and New Orleans and\u2026<\/p>\n

Okay, that\u2019s 500 words.\u00a0 So after all of that, I can abruptly shift into how I\u2019m planning to blow up my office building using illegal fireworks bought at Harper\u2019s Ferry.\u00a0 Which suddenly conjured the image of me naked, in the main lobby, shooting bottle rockets out of my ass.\u00a0 Man, that would be a statement!\u00a0 I wonder if that would make the internal newsletter?\u00a0 Pet Corner!\u00a0 New Births!\u00a0 How Susie Creamcheese Greens Her Office!\u00a0 Nacho Shoots Fireworks out of his Ass!<\/p>\n

Sorry, I\u2019m just bitter because they rolled our salaries back to the 2008 rate.\u00a0 How about our CEO, who is the highest paid CEO in DC and one of the ten highest paid CEO\u2019s in the entire publishing industry<\/em>, roll back his salary? Newsflash! Taking four grand away from someone who makes 39 grand a year hurts.\u00a0 If you want to pay us poverty wages while you rake in Spanish doubloons with your artificial, platinum-dipped mechanical cock (and who doesn’t?), then you can at least move us to Buttsville, TX or something.<\/p>\n

Um\u2026where was I?\u00a0 Oh, yes!\u00a0 I was about to have my mid-morning gin and tonic because, Jesus Goddamned Christ, that\u2019s the only way I can get through the day anymore.\u00a0 And it\u2019s not any of the above ranting that makes me crazy\u2026 It\u2019s the fact that my office mate set her phone to play the Doogie Howser, MD<\/em> theme song everytime she gets a text message. And she gets about one text every five minutes.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I\u2019ve been asked to return to \u201cClassic Nacho\u201d for the front page.\u00a0 Something that\u2019s a bit hard to do when I\u2019m also plugging away at the 12,000 words a month project.\u00a0 But then I got to thinking: It\u2019s structure on …<\/p>\n

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