{"id":2506,"date":"2005-05-02T23:16:02","date_gmt":"2005-05-03T04:16:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.greatsociety.org\/?p=2506"},"modified":"2018-10-31T20:39:07","modified_gmt":"2018-11-01T00:39:07","slug":"i-went-back-to-ohio","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/?p=2506","title":{"rendered":"I Went Back to Ohio"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #333333;\">That old time excitement and<br \/>\npomp that used to pervade the American College Experience has long since passed<br \/>\nus by; anyone older than fifty can tell you that. The exuberant sense of school<br \/>\npride and fervor for tradition of F. Scott Fitzgerald&#8217;s <em>This Side of<br \/>\nParadise<\/em> disappeared with the expansion of the middle-class, and even the<br \/>\nfreewheeling adventuresome spirit depicted in <em>Animal House<\/em> has eroded<br \/>\ninto the abysmal pseudo-parties of frat houses today. Still, if one is cunning<br \/>\nand clever enough, a righteous sentimentality can still be captured on the<br \/>\nCorporate Universities&#8217; campuses of today, and the snapshots and memories of<br \/>\nthe first years of your divorce from childhood can be collected carefully and<br \/>\npinned down and labeled&#8211;right there, right then: That&#8217;s where I was, that&#8217;s<br \/>\nwhere I shined. But after your four or five or even six years, once the<br \/>\nballoons have floated too high to see and all the confetti has been swept away,<br \/>\nthere is little left for you if you should return. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #333333;\">Still, like a wandering troubadour or an international armed forces coalition,<br \/>\nyou hope that during the time you had you made the place you visited a little<br \/>\nbetter, contributed something to the myth, maybe even sustained the chaotic<br \/>\nspirit that, more and more often, is being bound with red tape. So when I<br \/>\nreturned to Kent, Ohio, early in the spring, I had expected that not much would<br \/>\nbe different, that I would be welcomed back by old professors and pointed out<br \/>\nby many admiring underclassmen as &#8220;that guy who _______.&#8221; And, trust<br \/>\nme, there are a lot of things that could fill that blank. Even for a school as<br \/>\nbig as <\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\">Kent<\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\">State<\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\">University<\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\">, I managed to know a couple thousand people on a first<br \/>\nname basis and have even more than that watch the many stupid and brave things<br \/>\nI had done. <\/span><\/p>\n<p>After nine hours driving through the southern and midwestern savannahs, I<br \/>\narrived at my old roommate&#8217;s apartment to collect him. Ernest is the type of<br \/>\nchap that many wish they could be yet find so little time to try and become. An<br \/>\naccomplished axeman and athlete, with a keen understanding of higher<br \/>\nmathematics and physics, he is often found 10,000 miles beyond you both<br \/>\nphilosophically and physically once his temperament has become ignited. He<br \/>\ndrives very recklessly, and has run over many small animals which should have<br \/>\nhad science and adaptation on their side, including a roadrunner. How he<br \/>\nmanaged to nail that roadrunner, I&#8217;ll never know, but by gawd he did it. He has<br \/>\nfollowed me many places we should not have been and gotten me out of several<br \/>\nscrapes without so much as straining a muscle. We, of course, had a bond.<\/p>\n<p>My first destination was the Rathskellar, the bar on campus at which I used to<br \/>\nquaff and serve up many dark potions both as a customer and bartender. I<br \/>\nexpected to see several old friends (<span style=\"color: #333333;\">Kent<\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\"> has a high retention rate both among students and<br \/>\ngraduates; the elastic of its community never seems to tear), but instead I<br \/>\nentered through the door and saw several teenagers. The barman, who had been<br \/>\none of my best customers last year, talked to me a little while and charged me<br \/>\nvery little. While the beer was cold and good, what he had to say set the tone<br \/>\nfor most of my visit. He told me the old group never really came out too much<br \/>\nanymore, that Food Services was crunching down on the bar even more with regulations<br \/>\nand stipulations, and that one old friend, Bil, who was going to take my place<br \/>\nas bartender, had come down with leukemia and almost died. <\/span><\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Jesu, joy of man&#8217;s desiring,&#8221; I said to Ernest. &#8220;You didn&#8217;t<br \/>\ntell me people were dying around here.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I didn&#8217;t know, man,&#8221; he said.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Well, let&#8217;s get out of here regardless,&#8221; I said. &#8220;We have to<br \/>\nfind solace.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>We toured campus for a brief while, but after having to evade too many corrupt<br \/>\nacquaintances, we decided to step off of state property and dive into the private<br \/>\nsector. I spun my car into the parking lot of the Dairy Mart where we assumed<br \/>\nPyle was still working and hoorah for us, he was. We talked for a while as we<br \/>\nused to do, leaning against the refrigerator that held frozen pizzas and ice<br \/>\ncream treats and confusing the customers. We asked for some information on some<br \/>\nupcoming parties, but he couldn&#8217;t put his finger on any. Our conversation was<br \/>\ninterrupted several times by policemen coming in for free refills on their<br \/>\ncoffee. Pyle said that that&#8217;s how it had been for a while; the cops were<br \/>\nspawning.<\/p>\n<p>Ernest grumbled. He despises cops more than I do, and the scene from two years<br \/>\nago was still fresh in his mind. Dateline <span style=\"color: #333333;\">Kent<\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\">, Cinco de Mayo, the last fiesta before finals week<br \/>\nand\/or before going home. My first year we had followed the packs of people<br \/>\nover the rolling hills of campus, people crisscrossing paths on their way to<br \/>\ndifferent places, each side street filled with traditionally student-owned<br \/>\nhomes just thick with human shapes and clinking cans. There was a sense of<br \/>\naccomplishment wherever you went, that another year was over and we had made it<br \/>\npast the academic sirens. Marathons were being run in our blood, and even the<br \/>\ndark things that can happen to girls in attic bedrooms and basements did not<br \/>\noccur because everyone wanted to be outside breathing that type of <\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\">Ohio<\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\"> air that falls down from the sky for only a few weeks<br \/>\nout of the entire year. Everything was well and good until some asshole decided<br \/>\nto set his car on fire.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>This was in Townhomes, an apartment complex east of campus that had a student<br \/>\nresidency rate of almost 100 percent, and it was here were a lot of the<br \/>\nheaviest partying was done since it was close enough to campus to walk to yet<br \/>\nsecluded enough so that not many adults came snooping around. While everyone<br \/>\nelse danced and did kegstands, a young man snuck out to his piece of shit ride<br \/>\nand set it on fire. He had decided that his car was sufficiently lacking in<br \/>\nchrome, leather, and decibels, so he devised a plan to blame an unknown<br \/>\npartygoer for incinerating his car and collect enough insurance money to buy a<br \/>\nnew one, perhaps something with better gas mileage or tinted windows&#8230; The car<br \/>\ngot burned completely, and so did his little plan. Five witnesses saw him do<br \/>\nit, and up shit creek he went, along with the rest of us.<\/p>\n<p>During the next year, the Kent State Police Department tried to make a quiet<br \/>\narms deal. They wanted M-16 rifles; you know, the ones we used in <span style=\"color: #333333;\">Nam<\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\"> to kill Charlie. Other police departments have M-16s,<br \/>\nthey argued. The higher-ups quickly put an end to that, failing to see a<br \/>\ncorrelation between quelling race riots in <\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\">L.A.<\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\"> and stopping drunk college kids from pulling off<br \/>\nharebrained schemes. Unfortunately, a lot of other purchases were approved<br \/>\nunder the radar, including tear gas launchers, riot gear, and rubber bullets.<br \/>\nSo my sophomore year, when Ernest and I went down to investigate Townhomes, we<br \/>\nfound it completely cordoned off by armor-clad police who were gassing the<br \/>\nparking lot to keep kids from drinking on the lawn and shooting anyone who<br \/>\ntried to come near (after the appropriate amount of warnings, of course) with<br \/>\nnon-lethal projectiles. One kid we met had a huge red-black bruise on the back<br \/>\nof his thigh. He was a resident who was trying to leave the carnage since the<br \/>\ngas had wafted into his flat, coating the curtains. <\/span><\/p>\n<p>Nobody but students found this sort of police behavior odd, and the next year<br \/>\nthings were taken up a notch on the pre-emptive end. An ordinance was passed in<br \/>\nthe city that allowed the cops to approach a home due to any noise complaint<br \/>\nfrom a neighbor, and, as a result, instantly enter the house and start cuffing<br \/>\npeople if they sensed any probable cause when the person who had his stereo too<br \/>\nloud opened the front door. At the Dairy Mart, Pyle told us that this ordinance<br \/>\nhad been further revised so that an outside complaint wasn&#8217;t even necessary.<br \/>\nAny cop who thought that too much noise was being made in a house could just<br \/>\nwalk up and, at the very least, hand out a ticket.<\/p>\n<p>One Sunday in March of last year, my senior year at <span style=\"color: #333333;\">Kent<\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\">, the cops pretty much put the last nail in the coffin of<br \/>\nrepression during a student-led march protesting the <\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\">Iraq<\/span><span style=\"color: #333333;\"> war in its infancy. The group numbered less than seven<br \/>\nhundred people, the majority of them being kids who just wanted to play their<br \/>\ncongas outside and who were sort of lost since they were marching through the<br \/>\nscience and technology part of campus, where most of them had never been<br \/>\nbefore. The cops, forewarned of the march, were ready and waiting. I woke up<br \/>\nthat morning and was driving out to get some breakfast when I noticed there was<br \/>\na State Trooper parked down every single side street off of the main<br \/>\nthoroughfares. I quickly decided to go back to my room and wait out the day<br \/>\nsans doughnuts; I knew there would be bad consequences for the poor martyrs who<br \/>\ndecided to step outside their dorms. <\/span><\/p>\n<p>The pictures were in the paper next day of students being wrestled to the<br \/>\nground and cuffed. The dangerous hippies had failed to disperse. Some were<br \/>\narrested; many were bruised and bloody. It brought back bad memories of the<br \/>\nevent that had tarnished our school for at least 30 years, and no one thought<br \/>\nto bring up the idea before hand that a uniformed cadre bearing down on some<br \/>\nprotestors might cause the bile of that day to rise up again in the city&#8217;s<br \/>\nstomach. But, once again, no one other than the students batted an eye, and so<br \/>\nthe Boys in Blue continue to corral the students sporting blue and gold&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>The beating of uninformed student hippies like a band of coal mine scabs pretty<br \/>\nmuch convinced everyone that stepping out of line was just asking for some kind<br \/>\nof punishment, and the party scene has atrophied, though the bars are still<br \/>\ncarefree. Ernest and I headed for one of those safe havens, the Zephyr, and sat<br \/>\nfor a while talking about songs in the jukebox and the musicians who had made<br \/>\nthem. The doorman was a friend of mine who looked surprised to see me. One of<br \/>\nthe bartenders-slash-decorators remembered my name. Both described bad juju and<br \/>\ntalked about their plans for escape. A man stood up and hushed everyone.<br \/>\nHolding up his cell phone, he yelled, &#8220;I just found out I&#8217;m going to be a<br \/>\ngrandfather!&#8221; Jostled by the yell, we turned and saw a man no older than<br \/>\nforty-five sporting hipster clothes and a spiky haircut. It was depressing and<br \/>\nenjoyable at the same time, and so we bought him a Maker&#8217;s Mark.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;The Spring I seek is in a new face only,&#8221; I told Ernest after<br \/>\nseveral jiggers of Beam.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Let&#8217;s go play music,&#8221; he said. &#8220;We might as well get the band<br \/>\nback together while you&#8217;re here.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>And so we crowded into our singer&#8217;s bedroom and launched chords out of our amps<br \/>\nso that they reverberated around us and enclosed us until we were safe again,<br \/>\nthree boys isolated in their noise and youth.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[57,352],"tags":[68,353],"class_list":["post-2506","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-cass","category-gsarchive","tag-cassander","tag-gs-archive-2004-2008"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2506","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2506"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2506\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2750,"href":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2506\/revisions\/2750"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2506"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2506"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/greatsociety.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2506"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}